Most of us have a voice that says,”Do more, go after it.” or “Get busy.” or “You should ___ .” I have an interesting concept for you, you don’t have to do anything. You don’t actually have to do more, get busy, or listen to any should’s that are rattling around in your head.
You don’t have to have a purpose and you actually don’t have to change. You don’t have to do anything.
I’m always trying to identify and understand the opposing voices inside of myself. I know I want to love, to succeed, have peace, and live fully. I’ve also become increasingly aware that I also don’t want those things at the same time. As I tell myself the deeper truth I clearly see that I don’t want love, I sabotage my success, and sell off my peace for cheap.
What I’m illustrating is that seeking almost always infers that there’s another part that’s not seeking. If that weren’t the case we’d simply have what we want. The plot thickens… the more we seek to conquer or ignore the part that’s not hip to the plan the more resistance we experience.
For me this is my rebellious part. That fucking teenager that says,”I’m not going to do anything you want me to and the more you try to make me the less likely you’ll get me to do it.” Anybody have a teenager that does this or did this. Maybe you did this? The rebel in me demands independence. He’s all about that individuation process. The good part to that is where I need to break traditions that no longer make sense or serve me.
Rather than what society wants, what does my soul want?
Plenty of times a drive to be, do, or have more comes from imprinted bullshit. Family, society, or other groups that indoctrinate someone into believing made up, social contracts that were signed somewhere along line. That teenage part of me knows it. He asks,”Why are you letting other people tell us what to do?”
So I’ve found that what’s actually been needed in order to facilitate being, doing, or having more/different is giving myself permission to not be, to not do, and to not have. The more free I feel to do whatever it is I want to do the more likely I’ve become to be motivated to be, do, or have it. Not because I think I have to but because it might be interesting, or fun, or simply because it might feel good.
What unconsciously drives you have what you want?
Should what drives you be updated?
Should what you want be updated?
What does your soul want?
Thanks for your time, have a good day.