Life has an amazing way of presenting us(me) with stimulating experiences almost all the time. Some light and some extremely intense. Some invited and some sideways, out of nowhere, inconvenient, and totally uninvited. The latter seemingly the best to provoke growth. I suppose because we all tend to control and manipulate our sphere to be “just so”.
My favorite, in hindsight, are the experiences that leave me sleepless and grasping for my perceived power to create the life I think I’m supposed to be able to. The lesson… surrender. Letting go. Giving up the control I think I have and see what’s truly real.
In this discomfort the tendency is to regain equilibrium as fast as possible and to find our way back to “normal”.
For gods sake, make it end!
The pain.
The sadness.
The fear.
Just make it go away.
We want this so much that we’ll develop this special kind of amnesia. We’ll forget what our priorities are at the deepest level from our highest consciousness. This is actually where the work begins.
The lesson? I’m trying to appeal to your desire to grow and, in the long run, find more peace. More wholeness. Deep inside I think that’s what we all want. Creating a pattern of facing challenges, confronting adversity head on, and summoning up courage will pay dividends when in really matters.
The problem I’m trying to identify for you is when we move towards creating something “new” and things get challenging and difficult it’s common to go back to being safe, comfortable, and chill. Shit… just relax, don’t it all so serious. We check out, we go numb, and we struggle or never accomplish what we want to. This is common and natural. It’s also an unconscious tendency. So without conscious intention this is what happens.
Do something you don’t want to do every day. Build your capacity for this. When you find yourself in some inner dialogue that’s bargaining for a way out… then this is something you have to do. Have to. Sift through the shit, be decisive, and act.
What’s the one thing that you’ve already done, still need to do, or missed an opportunity for today?