It’s hard to take all this love.
I’m happy most of the time. But I’m also sad, depressed, afraid, frustrated, pissed…yada, yada… I run the full gamut of sensations and feelings that go along with this human experience. I’m not ashamed to admit that I can actually be a little crazy.
Some of the last lingering emotions I struggle to experience are the ones that fit in the basket we call love, happiness, peace, and elation. I know these aren’t all the same thing and I have the ability to differentiate between them. What kind of EQ consultant would I be if I couldn’t?!
What I’m saying is that the highest positive emotions are the most fertile area of embodiment for me. I don’t think I’m alone. I work with lots of people…men, women, young and elder alike. This is common. Who the hell are we to feel good these days?!
I was taught that I didn’t deserve love. Wait…that’s bullshit! I wasn’t taught that but while I was trying to make sense of why I “perceived” I wasn’t getting all the love I wanted when I was growing up I came up with the magnificent idea it was because I was unloveable. Kids are so fucking creative and resourceful! Creative, resourceful and whole…however they should NOT be trusted with the keys to a Lamborghini but that’s another story.
We all try to make sense of what we perceive about how in our reality we come up deficient when we are trying to get our needs met. This is a perception. It may or may not be true. Sometimes it, in fact, is. That’s not what I’m talking about. I’m talking about those of us that got “some” love. We look to re-create that all throughout our lives. My theory is that it’s part of us eulogizing those in our lives that we love. We’re trying to fulfill the bargain that we’ve made up in our imagination about the whole situation.
Hopefully many seek to solve this riddle throughout their lives to let in all the love that surrounds them. For me, I know that the world is conspiring for me and that I’m bombarded by love. I do know this. I just have to remove the obstacles that I put in the way to block it.
Also, we seem to live in a society that values grumbling, moaning, groaning, whining, complaining and all those other “my life isn’t what I want/need/think it to be descriptors”.
When was the last time someone authentically expressed,
“I’m completely content.”
“I have everything I want and need.”
“I’m overwhelmed with the wonderful things happening in my life.”
“I’m stupendous.”
“It’s hard to take all this love.”
I’m here to fight for and liberate the parts of us that focus on love, being grateful and recognizing all the beauty that constantly surrounds us and not the grumbling, moaning, groaning, whining, complaining stuff. I’ll meet you there.
I’m also here to tell you, “It’s hard to take all this love.”